Why is it so hard to forgive ourselves?
Maybe you are not like me…maybe you can forgive yourself no problem. But for me, well…truthfully I find it easier to forgive others than to forgive myself many times.
Why is that? I can sit down and pray, giving up all the guilt and remorse. I can sincerely give it over to God, saying I let it go….and that lasts for, oh, maybe 15 minutes or so and then I find I am picking it up again. Then the voice of regret begins to whisper once again reminding me of my past.
But you know what? I don’t think I am alone in this. Like I read somewhere once that we can hold out the olive branch to everyone else, but when it comes to ourselves, we only bring it close enough to grab the occasional leaf off of the thing.
I think the stones we throw at ourselves are the ones that hit the hardest, and leave the deepest bruises.
Self-forgiveness seems so elusive sometimes…why is that? Why is it so hard, and even more-why do we have to do it, and how can we?
I confess that I still carry around my own stone. *quiet tears*….but as I process, journal and pray I trust and believe and know that healing will come, and it will get easier to forgive myself… already I feel the grip on the stone lessening.
I’m going to be exploring this in the next while…I hope you will join me in this journey and share your experiences and what you have learned regarding self-forgiveness.