The devotionals I’ve been writing (co-writing actually) under the ‘Names of God’ category are part of a prayer path we did recently at an event for our church. It turned out to be a very powerful experience for those of us who went through it. If you’re interested in using it, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org and I’ll send you a copy and a brief description of how it works.
In the days around the event I’ve been … not sure how to put it … suffering I guess. I had a lot of anxiety. The funny thing was that I was not anxious because I thought it would be bad, but anxious because I thought it would be good. I knew it would be good. And that scared me. Through the process I was surprised to realize that I’m afraid to shine. I’m afraid that if I find ‘my thing’ and do it well that it will hurt the people I love, and that they’ll leave me.
Sounds crazy, I know. But it helped to understand where the shame and fear was coming from. Thanks for listening.