It may be a long time before I can pry some of them open.
I have hidden many memories behind them.
I may become frightened as I begin opening these doors.
I may become very angry as I open them.
I may weep and experience desperate sadness.
I may experience a sense of being more alone than I have ever
dared to imagine.
But today I am beginning to open doors.
Today I have charted my course.
I am not going to turn back now.
I am committed to my tomorrows, to new freedom, to feeling
pure again, and to healthy relationships.
I am committed to wholeness.
and God is committed to my healing also.
I have been abused.
Today I will begin sharing my story, as I am able.
I will not keep it a secret any longer.
I don’t want to carry this burden one more day of my life.
I want to feel clean and pure again.
I want to look people in the eyes and smile warmly, openly. I want to know that they love me.
Today I am willing to let God help me.
I will not ask Him to do for me that which I am
not willing to do for myself, to move from victim to victor…
I know there is healing that only He can
accomplish within me- healing that I cannot
Today I am going to begin to let other’s help me too.
They don’t have all the answers, but they can help me learn to
Today I am beginning to open the doors.
I want the wholeness of sunlight and happiness in my life.
Although I can’t change the past, I can begin to shape my todays and tomorrows.
Today I begin. This is my journey toward wholeness. I will not turn back.
(Adapted from the Healing Path-John P. Splinter)