Children obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right.  Honor your father and your mother which is the first commandment with a promise; that it may go well with you and that you may live long in the land the Lord is giving you.”  I’m 41 years old and I can’t tell you what that verse means.  I can’t tell you because I don’t know, even though I desperately want to.  I know what it doesn’t mean.  It doesn’t mean what I was taught.  My mother translated this verse for me very consistently over many long years.  I can’t remember the words she used, but I can tell you the message I got.  The words were sometimes confusing, but the message was loud and clear.  Children obey your parents”.  That’s the easy part.  Anyone can obey.  Your mother tells you what to do and you do it.  Honor your father and your mother”.  That’s the challenge.  To honor means to want what she tells you to want.  To honor means to feel what she tells you to feel.  If you do this, God loves you.  If you don’t, He doesn’t.

On my twelfth birthday my mom called me into her bedroom.  She held a blank piece of paper and a pen in her hands.  She smiled an overly-sweet smile at me.  “Lisa”, she said, “I have a very special birthday present for you this year.  This is what I want you to do.  Take this piece of paper and go to your room.  Write down everything you want.  Make the list as long as you want.  Write down everything you’ve ever hoped and wished for, even a very little bit.  When you’ve done that, bring it back to me.”

I did what she said.  I came back and handed her my list full of dreams.  She pushed the paper right back to me and said.  “Now this is what I want you to do.  Go back to your room and look at the first thing on the list.  Really think about that thing.  Think about what’s wrong with it.  Think about it broken and dirty.  You don’t really need it.  It’s useless.  It’s more trouble than it’s worth.  Think about it that way until you don’t want it anymore.  Then think about the next thing on your list the same way.  Do it with everything, the whole list.  When you’re finished you’ll have my gift.  My birthday present to you this year is the secret to happiness.  It’s Contentment.”

 So I went back to my room.  I did what she said.  I went through my list.  And I un-Wished myself.


5 thoughts on “12

  1. This particular memory haunts me mercilessly. The lie I believed became my friendless cellmate. I was Super-Lisa, the woman who needed nothing and I wore my righteous badge with my head held high, oblivious to the tragedy of my self-inflicted amputation. In cutting myself off from my heart I was left with nothing to offer God. My prayers became exercises in futility, emotionless dribble bouncing off the ceiling while I wondered why God felt so distant. The truth is I couldn’t get to HIM without bringing along ME.


  2. Lisa, I wept as I read this….how very wounding and betraying to a young girl who is standing on the threshold of becoming a young woman. A time in her life when she should be encouraged to dream and to dream big!!

    As I read it and was thinking and praying about your post this morning the Scripture that came to mind was Mark 16:41 where Jesus spoke to the girl who was 12 years old and said, “Talitha, koum. Which means- little girl, I say to you, arise.”

    I like the Amplified version that says it this way- “Gripping her [firmly] by the hand, He said to her, Talitha cumi–which translated is, Little girl, I say to you, arise [from the sleep of death]!

    Jesus is saying to you, to all of us…..its time to arise from that which was causing us to sleep in our hearts….to awake and take Him by the hand….

    ” And instantly the girl got up and started walking around–for she was twelve years old.”

    When we invite Jesus to supernaturally touch that area, that wound, that betrayal…..He touches our very hearts and replaces the lie with His truth….He heals where no one else can…..new life begins….we once again stand on the threshold of new dreams and possibilities….daring to dream dreams….trusting Him to carefully handle our deepest dreams.

    Your heart is so beautiful and your dreams….our dreams, matter to Him…..Jesus has said so!


  3. I love that…
    Little Girl GET UP!

    He is resurrecting my heart, my dreams and my passions. Now He and I have a lot more to talk about!


  4. I too wept once again when I read this. You are an amazing woman who has been through a tornado of the soul. I am glad that you have this forum and pray daily that you will closure and healing from all the partake.

    Always your Sister in Christ,



  5. Thank you Sis.
    And since I have the pleasure of knowing you in person I’d like to point out that you are pretty amazing yourself!


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